Friday, July 16, 2010

Pain Killers Are a Good Thing

Pain killers are a good thing; especially when someone is recovering from major surgery. If someone who is recovering from said surgery does not take pain killers it could result in an emotional meltdown. How do I know? I know due to the fact that I am the said someone. Today is a better day. I took pain killers. Yay for modern medicine! I may hate the fact that I have a colostomy bag for at least 2 more months, but at least I have people to remind me that the end result is what I am looking forward to. I will be Ulcerative Colitis free. I will be able to go for walks, exercise, and do other stuff. I need to make a short mantra that I can repeat to myself when I am having melt downs.

Other than the realization that pain killers are a good thing, I realized one other thing as I was drifting off to sleep last night. This realization saddened me a great deal. I forgot the one being that could comfort me beyond any human being, God…. I forgot… how could I forget?

I have never been one who was good a devotionals and spending time in the word. But I have always been a prayer. I am ashamed to say that I have not done so in far too long (other than last night). I have felt empty and alone. That is not a good feeling, and not a necessary one. God is the one person who can remove all of those things.

So, what do I do? I refocus, I take this time that I have and turn it too Him. I do not have to work and I really can’t do too much around the house yet. This is a gift. I am going to use it.


Kathie Haddon said...

So very happy for your realization!! He truly is the only one that is with us always and has the power to help when we need it!! I will continue to be praying for you as you heal!!!

Christie said...

Oh, girl. I just want you to know that I love you and I am praying for you!