Life is chaotic in so many ways. We have intentions, things we want to accomplish. We make lists, we lose lists, we have dreams, and those dreams change. It can be frustrating, infuriating in fact, when those lists don’t get completed, or those dreams aren’t achieved. But the one thing I am beginning to realize, as my life changes and the chaos abounds; no matter what is going on in your life, there is always something good to hang on to.
My dreams are still there (changing a little as time goes by, adapting if you will), and although they have not been accomplished yet, I still hold on to them. They are part of what keeps me going when I go to that job that pays the bills but doesn’t fulfill my dream. Along with the dreams is my family. I look at my son, his big smile and “hug me now, kiss me too” requests throughout the day, my husband who goes to work from 9-5, while picking up side jobs to make ends meet, who is tired and needs a vacation… I look at all these things, at the life growing inside me, and I am blessed. I still have my dream, I still have my family! God is good!
So, as a venture into a new chapter of my life, yet again, I hold on to the good, the beautiful, and embrace my place in the world. I am not perfect, by any means, but I am a child of God with a purpose. I embrace where I am because I have followed God’s will, and he has placed me here. I still dream, and someday that dream will become real, I will be where I want to be, doing what I want to do. In the mean time, I am doing what I have to do, embracing my family, and finding joy and peace amidst the chaos that is life.