Monday, January 19, 2009

On Being Home

Not a lot of new stuff to report in my life. I have not been getting a whole lot of sleep, but am functioning relativly well considering that. I am not doing great at the whole 'resting' portion of things. Although my body does tell me when I have been doing too much and I eventually have to stop, it would just be nice if I stopped before I started feeling uncomfotable. I never realized how much of a 'go go go' person I was until I had to slow down. Granted when I am sick I slow down, but usually that lasts maybe a day or two at the most, where having a baby the recovery is a bit longer, and when you are not moving around you feel just fine. I am thoroughly enjoying staying at home, I would love to not have to go back to a full time job (which I love). Part time would be ideal, but life does not always fit into the ideal category. I am hoping and praying that I do ot have to go back until the begining of March.

Being at home full time has some interesting 'side affects,' such as having no idea what day of the week it is and what day of the month it is. Point in case: My dad called me the other day to see about coming on Saturday, which won't work as I have other company that day. When I asked him if he had other things he was doing that day in Salem he said no, but since it was my Birthday he wanted to stop by. My response was, "Saturday is my Birthday... oh, haha, I almost forgot." Now, for me to forget my birthday is a big thing... I NEVER forget my Birthday.... EVER. I am a bit selfish that way. I remind everyone that my birthday is coming up and always tell then what I want, but apparantly having a baby changes that. Although I would like a copy of Mama Mia and a gift card to Starbucks.

The once nice thing, that I think I have mentioned in my previous blogs, is that Mike is staying home with me and Ronin until the end of January and then he is taking Sundays off until the end of March. I like that, I get to see my husband more now. And he is so great with Ronin. Also having the baby has brought us closer together, inspite of the occasional lack of sleep grumpiness. Life is good now, and I do belive those baby blues have subsided. I feel great and I am losing the weight fast. I am almost back to my pre-pregnancy weight (don't hate me, I am doing Weight Watchers.)

I guess since I am reaching the rambling stage of my blog I shall call it quites... but here are some pictures that are just too darn cute.

I just LOVE this picture, Maia has to be with whoever has the baby..
Mike took one just like this of me Ronin and Maia, but I was asleep and it isn't a flattering picture of me, lol.

Here he is getting ready to go to Sushi with mom for the first time, YUM!

This shirt says "little squirt" on it, which is perfect for him.... hehe!

Tuesday, January 13, 2009

On Being a Mom

It still feels so unreal. I have a son! I am not sure if the feeling of being in a dream is related to that feeling of unreality, or if it is due to the lack of sleep?

The feelings that one can have for something so small is amazing. I look at Ronin and my heart aches with the love that I feel for him. The other day we went to the doctors to get him circumsized, I worried so much that my head hurt. I felt as though I was holding my breath the whole time, and I wanted to just burst in to tears. I would not relax until the doctor came and told me that the procedure was over and everything went perfectly. I breathed a huge sigh of relief. And then, on the drive home some ditzy blonde talking on her cell phone and not paying attention to driving almost side swiped us. I once again began to hold my breath until we were safely in the drive way at home. I barley know this little boy, but my heart would break if anything ever happaned to him. Again, the love that one can feel... it's amazing.

In looking back at the past year and a half I am amazed at everything that has happaned in my life. I got a wonderful job that I love. We bought our first house (this also fits into the dream category, when will I wake up?). And we had a baby. Aren't those considred the major life changes? God has been so good to my family.

I leave you with another picture of the cutest baby boy in the world.

Monday, January 5, 2009

Presenting My Newest Family Member

Ronin Kael Olson
January 2nd 2009
7 lb. 12 oz ~~~19.5 inches

Isn't he the most precious baby ever!!! As painful as the actual labor was,(before the blessed epidural) it is MORE than worth it to have those beautiful eyes look up at me, and I know that he knows I am his mom!!! I still can't believe they let us take him home with us???? What were they thinking.
I find it amazing, how I am able to (sort of) function on the tiny amount of sleep I have had. I start labor with him on Jan 2nd at 4 ish in the morning and have maybe slept a total of 10 hours in the last 84 hours, yet miraculously I am able to function relatively well. I do often forget what I am about to say to some one if I pause for even a moment. Regardless of the minor lack of sleep a newborn brings with him, it is still wonderful... And really when you think about it, he has had a major trauma to bring him into the world... and so in order to comfort him and let him know it isn't all that bad, I am willing to loose the sleep right now.
Well, speaking of trauma, sounds like Ronin is having a minor one right now, and mom must go and comfort him.