I have mentioned in the past how it is amazing how God
speaks to me with the same message from various different areas in my
life. And even some times the messages
he is telling may initially seem different, but when you add them all up they
are very much the same.
The message that God was giving me, which I am still piecing
together, is a combination of two things.
1. Friendships are important, especially to mom’s of toddlers who stay
home. 2. Emotions do not necessarily need to be your guide.
God used two things to show me that Friendships were
important, one was MOPS and the other was Women of Faith. The same week both events spoke on the
importance of Friendships, and in the same exact context… being a mom of a
toddler can be isolating. Wow… I thought… I need to reconnect. The past several weeks, when at events with
other adults, I was reverting back to the college girl who stood in the corn
feeling awkward and unable to connect with others… ending up in tears. It was unsettling. I thought that I had moved past this era of
my life… it was scary too. I did not
want to have to start all over working back to a place I had already been,
where I was not too long ago.
I was becoming this emotional wreck. I have always been lead by my emotions. But God was starting to say no more. He was saying that I needed to live beyond my
emotions. At the Conference I was
somewhat shocked by my lack of emotion.
Generally when I go to spiritual gatherings I am overwhelmed with emotion
in regards to something that is being spoken about. When the topic is relevant to my situation,
my emotions step in and I have this ‘epiphany’
that is based on my emotional response… NO MORE… God said no more.
After the conference (that same day in fact) I was talking
with my husband, and he asked a typical guy question “can’t you separate emotion
from what is being said?” I was mad… I
wished that he could understand that that was not possible… or was it?
So… what does this mean, I ask myself? It means that I can make a change based on
what I learned from the speakers at the conference, regardless on whether I had
an emotional epiphany. And that
means that with work, and prayer I am going to work on living beyond my
emotion.
I am not sure what this means yet… but with work and prayer,
God will teach me… With friends help… God will guide me, NOT MY EMOTION.
